— 06 February
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— 06 February
"Yes, I was infatuated with you; I am still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I cut you out because I couldn’t stand being a passing fancy. Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my minds, my dreams. And you weren’t having any of those."
Reblog — Day [CCCV]
You’re so dull. You’re so boring. You’re so unmotivated and sometimes I feel like you demotivate me. Your attitude is poisonous. I find everything you do so pointless. I don’t feel like you’re helping yourself.
I feel like you’re stuck in a rut. You won’t admit it and you don’t try hard enough. You don’t strive for things and that doesn’t compliment my work ethic. I want to be driven. I want to try hard. I always want more.
You seem so stifled by other people and mostly yourself. You tell me you don’t have a lot of regrets but I feel that you do. When’s the last time you did something productive? How are you working towards your goal?
What is your ultimate dream and how are you going to get there?
I’m beginning to feel we don’t match. I don’t feel like things are working.
I’ve sworn to myself that I’d never depend on anyone for my success and happiness - and I don’t - and I haven’t. Countless times I’ve told my friends and loved ones - I will always rely on myself. I don’t believe it’s fair in dates for the male to always be buying the luxuries, the edibles, the babying of the lady - that’s old, boring and patronises women. Of course I enjoy the occasional double standard. But it’s a guilty pleasure.
But on the contrary, you’re very expensive for me. I love you so much that I want you to be happy, and I want to take you wherever I go. The problem is I pay the price.
I have paid for your travels, I have paid for your meals, I’ve paid for your clothing and all other seemingly necessary essentials. You’re expensive to have and expensive to keep. I feel like such a hypocrite ranting but this has been pent up a while. I’m questioning the very use of you in my life. Why aren’t you doing anything?